Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! Here’s to a wonderful new year and lots of happiness and love… and cake. Cake makes everything a little more special. (My gluten free friends, try making this one. It’s delicious.)
There’s this thing that happens to me. I feel a little down about everything for days on end. I feel like a loser… in life, as a homemaker, and definitely as the owner of my crochet business. There’s comparing myself to other people (which is dumb, because a snap shot of someone’s “life” on social media is no basis for comparison). I get sad, and then I get nothing done. It’s really annoying. It’s like I have to torture myself and do this, or I can’t be an artist. I call bullsh*t on that. I don’t need to be my own worst enemy. I need to be positive, motivated, and love what I’m doing… in all aspects of my life. I have to stop caring about what other people seem to be doing and what they seem to have. Maybe they’re just faking it until they make it too. It happens.
Hiking is one of my loves. It makes me happy to be outside in nature, and I’m happy to hug the trees. It’s very therapeutic. A friend of mine turned me onto the true greatness of grounding yourself outside. The tree hugging really helps. It also cracks Hubs up, because he’s called me a tree hugger with bark burn since we’ve known each other. Anyway. Hiking is wonderful, and this trip allowed Kiddo and I to bond for a morning.
The handmade businesses and artists that I’ve been browsing lately have been so creative. I’ve been asking myself if I really need that pair of handmade, super comfy (and now they have skirts) overalls that I’ve been wanting. Yes. Yes I do. Do I buy myself a pair? No, not usually. I often can’t justify spending what an artist needs to be paid. Thoughts of an upcoming grocery trip, back to school shopping, and the fact that the bills are due in 3 days… and we just got back from vacation… and Hubs was home from work a few days before we left… and whatever else I have to spend money on, float across my brain. Then I find myself shopping in a non-handmade store, because I need new clothes and can only afford crappy, inexpensive clothing, that isn’t even from this country, and will probably rip or get a hole in it by the third washing.
I’ve been on a quest for the past 6+ months to find a schedule that works for me. It can’t stress me out and has to be flexible. I’m juggling quite a few things here… crocheting, family, spinning, wool processing, blogging, etc. I needed a system to get it all done. I think I’m onto something here, and hopefully it won’t change in a month when school is out.
Anyone? Bueller? Bueller? (You younger kids, click here to see what Bueller’s all about.) Does anyone really know how to get rid of stress? I’ve been really interested in this lately. The grand old internet doesn’t seem to have any real answers here. It tells you how to deal with stress, but no one seems to really know how to get rid of stress. It’s a shame. Stress is kind of killing us (Overdramatic much? Not really. It is.)… very slowly. I’m not a fan.
I’m waiving my I give up flag. I’m not going to fight this battle anymore. Fighting to keep a I’m a mom schedule separate from my I’m running a business schedule isn’t working. The past month has proved to me that no amount of neat, organized scheduling makes my productivity or mom skills better. It’s very frustrating, and I give up. There has got to be a better way.